Today is the first day of my liquid fast, to realign my priorities and offer it to my Savior, Jesus Christ. First question is, Who am I? and I found the answer in 1 Chronicles 17.
King David went in, took his place before God, and prayed:
Who am I, my Master God, and what is my family, that you have brought me to this place in life? But that’s nothing compared to what’s coming, for you’ve also spoken of my family far into the future, given me a glimpse into tomorrow and looked on me, Master God, as a Somebody. What’s left for David to say to this—to your honoring your servant, even though you know me, just as I am? O God, out of the goodness of your heart, you’ve taken your servant to do this great thing and put your great work on display. There’s none like you, God, no God but you, nothing to compare with what we’ve heard with our own ears. And who is like your people, like Israel, a nation unique on earth, whom God set out to redeem as his own people (and became most famous for it), performing great and fearsome acts, throwing out nations and their gods left and right as you saved your people from Egypt? You established for yourself a people—your very own Israel!—your people forever. And you, God, became their God.
So now, great God, this word that you have spoken to me and my family, guarantee it forever! Do exactly what you’ve promised! Then your reputation will be confirmed and flourish always as people exclaim, “The God-of-the-Angel-Armies, the God over Israel, is Israel’s God!” And the house of your servant David will remain rock solid under your watchful presence. You, my God, have told me plainly, “I will build you a house.” That’s how I was able to find the courage to pray this prayer to you. God, being the God you are, you have spoken all these wonderful words to me. As if that weren’t enough, you’ve blessed my family so that it will continue in your presence always. Because you have blessed it, God, it’s really blessed—blessed for good!
As I have reflected how my 2011 went, i realized I have experienced so many unexpected blessings last year. In the eyes of the world, It might look like I didn’t accomplish anything because I didn’t earn fame and fortune, I wasn’t able to travel to the places that I dreamed to go to. But the breakthroughs in my family life, and the joy and contentment that I feel being where God wanted me to be, is just unspeakable. The blessings that come with giving value to family is just so overwhelming. And with that, thank You, most precious Father. Truly Your ways are not my ways. You’ve put me into place. You’ve humbled me. You’ve broken me to little pieces for me to reach into a realization, that apart from You, and apart from my family, I will never be joyful. And that joy will only come if I have accepted who I am, and what my role is in this world. I am, and will forever be, Your servant. And I know my place now. I will forever be grateful to you. And slowly You’re putting me back together. Molding me as that servant that you want me to be. Taking away (slowly but surely) that rebellious spirit in me, that “entitled” mentality that I have been holding on to forever, and that selfish diva attitude that You so hated. And I’m excited to ask, “what’s next, father? What do you want me to do next?”.
I have faith , Lord Jesus, that the promises that I’ve been holding on to will be fulfilled this year. And as early as now, I thank You. So much. Because, I don’t deserve any of it, but You’re giving them to me, solely through GRACE.
sharing my version of Kari Jobe’s song, Beautiful. Forgive the guitar playing, I’m a newbie.